OVER IT
IN LAST NOVEMBER, I TORE MAY ACL AND MINISCUS PLAYING SOFTBALL. MY FIRST SURGERY CONSISTED OF A ACL REPLACEMENT WHICH IS DOING GREAT AND THE MENISCUS REPAIR, MY DR. TOLD MY THAT THE CHANCES OF MY MENISCUS REPAIR BEING A SUCCESS WOULD BE VERY SLIM BUT SINCE I AM SO ACTIVE TO GIVE IT A SHOT. A MONTH LATER AFTER THE SURGERY THE PAIN FROM THE SURGERY HAD SUBSIDED BUT I KEPT HEARING POPS, CLICKS AND JUST HAVING HORRIBLE PAIN ALL THE TIME. MY DR. WENT BACK IN AND FOUND THAT MOST OF THE TISSUE HAD DIED AND WAS BASICALLY SHUFFLING AROUND IN MY KNEE. SIX MONTHS LATER AND THE INSIDE OF MY KNEE IS STILL KILLING ME AND OFTEN THROBS HE TOLD ME IT WAS THE SCAR TISSUE FROM 2 SURGERY'S. OF COURSE SINCE THEN, I DECIDED I NEEDED TO GET ANOTHER OPINION. HE DID'NT SAY MUCH, HE JUST HAD THIS LOOK ON HIS FACE AS IF HE COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT HE WAS HEARING. HE TOOK X-RAYS, GAVE ME A SHOT OF CORTISONE AND PUT ME BACK ON MY CRUTCHES AND TOLD ME I NEEDED TO HAVE A SPECIAL BRACE MADE. IM STILL IN SO MUCH PAIN, THAT I AM DROPPING WEIGHT FAST, I HAVE A CONSTANT HEADACHE, AND MY MOUTH IS ALWAYS WATERY (A NAUSIA FEELING). WHAT ELSE CAN I DO TO COMFORT MYSELF AND WHAT DO MAKE OF ALL THIS? I FEEL AS IF NO ONE CARES IF I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE THE PAIN AND KNOWING I WILL HAVE TO WORK ALL DAY WITH A FAKE SMILE ON MY FACE.I AM JUST SOOO OVER IT.
